A couple of months ago, my sister called with some great news,
she was engaged and would be getting married in Nov 2013. I was beyond excited for her and we basked in
all the joy of a new engagement, but once I got off the phone, it hit me; this
means that I will have to wear a bridesmaids dress in a couple of months. Fear quickly took over me and I went into
panic mode. I know this is my sister’s
big day, but I started thinking about how bad I would feel when years from now
I looked at her pictures and I saw just how much weight I had picked up. You
know that feeling when you see a picture of yourself and you cringe when you
see just how those few extra pounds have translated on film. I vowed then that I was going to do
something, but just like every other time, I slacked off after a couple of
days, telling myself that I had plenty of time. Over the past 7 years I have struggled with
my weight. Before having Haiden, I
joined weight watchers and I did pretty well, almost reaching my goal weight
before we found out we were expecting. I
later rejoined after her birth and was doing well until once again I found out
I was expecting Madison. Since having Madison two and a half years ago, I have
found myself in a constant battle of taking the extra weight off. It’s sad to
admit but at the time I gave birth to Madison, I had let my weight get to over
200 lbs., and she only weighed 6lbs, 2oz. I knew I had let my pregnancy weight
get out of hand when my doctor told me at one of my visits that I looked like I
had two drum sticks on the side of my body.
Since then I have made several attempts at getting the weight off but I
would always lose motivation and give up.
One of my problems is that I tend to be an emotional eater. I think it
all started in 2004 when Isaiah went to Iraq and over the years I have found
myself falling back into it depending on what is going on in my life. I love
food, especially good food, so when we moved to Dallas, Isaiah and I became acquainted
to the city by searching out all the good food spots and boy did we find them.
With this last transition back to the East coast I have found myself falling
back into it again and I have slowly watched my weight creep back up close to
the 200 lbs mark.
Determined to take back my body I have made a commitment to
take the weight off and keep it off. To
help me with my goal, I have joined the YMCA, and I make sure that I
consistently attend cardio classes. To help me out even more, I have also downloaded
some fitness apps (Nike Training club, fit ID, and My fitness pal) that will
help guide my workouts when I am at the gym to make sure I am on track. With our life being so chaotic, I do not have
the time to start attending weight watchers meetings but I know that having
that accountability really motivates me so I have decided that I will blog
about my adventures along the way of my weight loss plan. Each week I will post
about my struggles, my successes, the workouts I have done and my weight. Yes,
you heard me right I will be posting my weight. I think that this is one way that I will make
sure to stay committed this time. Anyone who has tried to lose weight knows
that it is not as easy as it seems so I hope that it will serve as not only a
motivation for me but for others who are struggling to get the weight off. So now the work begins….
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